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I only knew Wintermute briefly in my early days of MOOing. We spoke only in passing, and I can't say that we were ever friends, but his was a name that I remembered when I came back to LambdaMOO after a 2 year absence. To hear that he ended his life was a shock to say the least, and brought tears to my eyes. The memorial that has been set up once again brought tears to my eyes.. It seems he was well loved by friends and family both, and a beautiful job has been done to retain that memory.

Wintermute, Allen.. if you can read the WWW wherever you are.. Be peaceful man.
Rtyste
Canada

Good evening, I am a computer scientist in the UK, and I just ended up at this site completely by chance. It struck me the honesty and dignity that the site conveys. I did not know Allen - but it brings home I guess the mortality of each one of us. Thank you, and good luck in the future, Kit
Kit Lane <ckl8@aber.ac.uk>
UK -

We didn't know eachother well, Allen, when you were alive, but we have many mutual friends and acquaintences. I find myself quoting you alot lately, or at least directing people to your URLs, especially when people ask on some mailing list or other "What the hell does 'squick' mean???". I find the timing of yesterday's event in Colorado rather ironic. I never like to hear about a shooting, at any time of year, but let me take this time to wish that tomorrow, the 3rd anniversary of your departure from our presence, may no one pick up a weapon and take a life, either that of another, or their own. Happy birthday Allen. Rest in peace.
Andrew <Andrew@pure-chaos.com>
USA -

When I worked with him at Netcom's NOC, Allen used to talk about the *&^%ing kidney stones that he would get from milk and how he could never drink it because the calcium would be absorbed too quickly because of the Vitamin D in most milk. He had to make due with Half and Half--I still think Allen had the only metabolism could handle something like that and not seize up... His descriptions of passing a stone 1/4 the size of a BB still makes me cringe... I went to a store the other day and found milk that did not have Vitamin D in it... The first thing I thought was, "Hey, Allen would love this stuff...!"
A friend from Netcom...
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allen you must admit we had an odd relationship but we both had fun fighting with each other and telling our secrets. I miss our fights, maybe one day if we meet up you an finish telling me about Mexico and we can finish our last fight...
Nora
San Pablo, ca USA -

I don't remember asking you if you were the same WIntermute that used to call my BBS (Cold Winter Knights) or not, but either way, I'm saddened I never got the chance to say 'hi'. Farewell, man.
YD/Yellow Dragon/Bill Glaholt <glaholt@quiknet.com>
Sacramento, CA USA -

Thanks, Mike. That's all I've got to say. Just thanks.
Chiroptera <jodys@leland.stanford.edu>
Mountain View, CA USA -

Ha ha, Allen, you got your parents to put your MOOname in stone! Good one. A few weeks ago I was thinking about you, and wondering, if you were still here on Earth if you'd be happier now than in September. I didn't know about you, but I knew I'd be happier. I miss you, but it's so great to see how easily you live on here.
crayon <crayon@leprosy.net>
Cupertino, CA USA -

Was looking for info on cows when i found this i think this is a greast tribute to your friend and i feel sorry for your loss and i wish you the best
Nicole <Nicole976@hotmail.com>
miami, fl USA -

I had met Allen on IRC/effnet awhile ago In the #snap Channel, We Hit it off mainly cause we had the same taste in music And the fact we were one of the few that had an amiga. We started to talk (When i could afford to call him i would) I also told me the story of how he got his name (wintermute). I really miss him RanZeroX/BlahSnarto
BlahSnarto/RanZeroX <blahsnarto@hempseed.com>
Chicago, Il USA -

I never met Allen, on the moo or irl, but I wish I had. I remember the day he died well though. I was in Oak Ridge, visiting another mooer, when she came into the bedroom crying and told me that he had killed himself. I was 31 days old on lambda moo. I wound uo here 2 days ago just to see if anything had been done with this domain, and I was pleasantly surprised, you've done a grand job memorializing Allen. I wish I had known him. Anyone that likes guns and motorcycles is alright, and I love his 'rules and drools' list. Cause there's a conflict in every human heart between the rational, the irrational, between good and evil. And good does not always triumph.
Downtime #108986 <downtime@mindspring.com>
Chattanooga, TN USA -

i knew Wintermute from his Inferno days. Back in the days of Cleo, et al....i can never remember whether i met him in real life, but he still had an impact on me and i still think about him to this day.
Pete "Psychopath" Dirksen <p-dirksen@nwu.edu>
san mateo, ca USA -

I don't know any of you, and you don't know me. I stumbled on this site while looking for cow info. I was quite confused at the sight of this web-page... Then I read your story on Allen. It totally hit home. I don't know anyone who has commited suicide, but I know many people who have attempted. I am one of those people. When a person slips into depression, almost nothing can bring them fully back. Suicide seems the only way out. I don't know this person's history, nor will I ever, nut I he has educated me in an astounding away. Maybe in not the ideal way, Allen has taught us all a message. Human life is prcios, and delicate. Hopefully, we can all learn from him. Remember how important your friends are. You always have time for those people in your life, even if you don't think you do.
Magenta <grrrl_marz>
Sidney, OH USA -

Allen, You were indeed a good friend, and you are indeed missed. -Bren
Brendan ' Ghost' Vila <bvila@iname.com>
Alexandria, VA USA -

Happy Birthday Allen... Today I have doubled the speed limit on my motorcycle, harrassed a spammer, leered at a schoolgirl, and raised a glass... all in your Honor. You are missed my friend. -Mike-
Moike <moike@netcom.com>
Sunnyvale, CA USA -

1:46 AM, Wednesday, April 22, 1998. Happy birthday Allen.
Rimma <mmefrank@ix.netcom.com>
Campbell, CA USA -

I didn't know Wintermute, and I don't remember having heard people talk much about him since I've been on Lambda (which is not long by any means, just a few months). But the dedication that's been put into his memorial is highly commendable. I can tell there is true feeling here. Perhaps someday I will find the courage to ask about Wintermute on Lambda. I would like to know more about what seems like a complex and intriguing person. I can tell his loss is one felt by many people, and it even affects those--like me--who didn't know him.
Etoile <Etoile@cheerful.com>
Westminster, MD USA -

there isn't much that I can say besides I miss him, I miss him. "I know it's not you, it's just your ghost passing through..."
linnea <linnea@>
sunnyvale, ca USA -

I didn't know Wintermute at all, but when I came here out of curiousity because I heard about what happened at LambdaMOO. Wish that I could've got to know him. #105570
spivak <spivaks@hotmail.com>
NJ USA -

If you knew Allen, I don't know what I could say here that you don't already know. If you didn't, then nothing I can say could make you understand why his death hit so many people so hard. 15 September 1996 seems like only yesterday. I still half expect Allen to call on the telephone to see if I want to go blow up some government building or something. But that call never comes. Allen, I miss you! Allen was over at my house the night of the fifteenth. We watched some movies with his brother, his brother's friend, my sister, and her boyfriend. I had to go to work because I was working the graveyard shift. They stayed and had a great time, and my sister was beginning to realize that Allen wasn't such a bad guy after all. Unfortunately, an event occurred with my sister's boyfriend that made Allen feel that he needed to leave, so around 2AM he called a cab and left. Moike called me at around 6AM, shortly before my shift was to end. He said the police were after Allen. I called home to see what was up, and my sister said Allen was asleep on the sofa and she couldn't wake him. I sped home to find that the corpse on the sofa was really Allen's brother. He called home, and his parents told him what had happened. The rest of the day still seems like a dream to me. Knowing that had I not been working that night Allen would in all likelihood have crashed at my place, it's hard for me not to blame myself in part for what happened. But how long would it have been before the demons that lived in Allen's head destroyed him? Allen, you made a big impression on a lot of people, and you taught me many things. How many people really leave their mark on the world? Not many. You will live on in our hearts and our minds, so your life wasn't wasted. Goodbye Allen.
Sean R. Lynch
San Jose, CA USA -

I only met Allen briefly in person, after talking to him on the Magic Kingdom BBS and later, IRC. Still, I was saddened to hear of his death, because in a small way, he had an impact on my life during a difficult time. I had a long talk with Allen on MK, during that time, and his sense of humor helped change my outlook on things. I needed someone to listen, and he did, sharing some of his own experiences along the way. Allen probably didn't know how much simply listening to me helped. I should have told him when I had the chance.
Cyndi Kessler <ckessler@hooked.net>
San Jose, CA USA -

Even though it's been almost a year and a half since Allen left us, it's really great to be able to look at pics of him and read his stories here. He was a gifted story teller and unique individual. I'm glad I had a chance to know him.
Ninette Haro <ninetteh@yahoo.com>
San Jose, CA USA -

Damn... Allen was an amazing man. I worked with him at Netcom for about 2 years. He would always have an amazing story to brighten your day or make it a bit surreal. I still remember fondly Allen and I sitting on the deck of the MEZ, power out in the building, Netcom burning, and Allen telling me how to avoid those pesky creditors. When Hardcore called me with the news, a part of me died. Allen, we miss ya. Mike
Michael Glenny <glenny@best.com>
San Jose, Ca USA -

We, Allen's family, are so grateful and appreciative to moike for all the energy,time and special effort he has put into creating this living memorial to Allen. It has been a trememdous comfort to us. We know that Allen is pleased. Thank you moike for being a true and continuing friend to Allen. Thank you to all of Allen's friends for caring and for your continuous thoughts, prayers and support of him. Your comments, anecdotes and other efforts help to keep him alive in our hearts, as we continue to gain the strength to survive without his physical presence in our lives. We will always love him.
Allen's Mom, Mary Kay <a2274@webtv.com>
Los Gatos, CA USA -

[Remove NOCRAP from the email address to mail to me] Well, Allen's still dead. I was sort of hoping he'd rise from the grave, but not as a flesh eating zombie, because then we'd obviously we'd have to kill him again. If I die and come back as a flesh eating zombie, I'll understand if you kill me, too. I didn't know Allen too well, but I do know one thing -- his death is a tragedy, and we owe him at the very least the honor of recognizing that and remembering him in the years to come.
Alex Wiesen <alex@NOCRAPfictional.com>
Palo Alto, CA USA -

I met Wintermute while we were in highschool before his "grand enterance" at Malachi's birthday party. When he returned from his "little vacation" we went out and did all sorts of bad stuff. At any rate, I miss him, I remember him fondly.
Chris Newnan <pigpoker@labratt.com>
Mt. View, USA -

Well, I don't really know what to say. Meeting Allen was probably the greatest thing that ever happened to me. He completely changed my life and my outlook on it.....he taught me many things about myself and others. I looked up to him for many things; he was everything I ever wanted to be. He was a good friend and I miss him dearly. Since his passing, a big part of me has been missing. A few days after the funeral, I had a dream about him. In it, he told me not to cry anymore and to carry on his legacy. I don't know if that was just my overactive imagination or if it was really him, but either way, I try to do just that in any way I can.
Rimma <mmefrank@ix.netcom.com>
Campbell, CA USA -

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